[personal profile] rattlecatcher
1.
Through March, my GYWO total was 31,065 words. As I'm in the 200K group, that's... well it's a bit thin.
But in April I logged over 40,000 words. I am happy, I am thrilled, I am grateful.
My ego is waiting for the results to be posted so I can see that my count is no longer thin, but thick with words, and the possibilities of continuing same. Which I am - my words are continuing to flow, and I'm over 80,000 words at this time.

2.
I am staying in a little house - not a tiny house, by definition, just a very small 1-bedroom dwellng with a front and side door, carport and a back yard with one of those bench trellises I am currently sitting in. It's very peaceful living here, and I'm happy. Meanwhile, my landlords are my brother's inlaws, and they are sweet, gentle souls. I have offered to mow (I kill plants, so don't ask me to garden if you value your beds), but still my bro's F-I-L comes over and mows. He was here last Thursday, and the mower tracks are still visible. The little flowers - I always wantto call them daisies but they're the little white flowers you get in yards. Not clover flowers, but, you know, tiny daisies. So the field of them visible last Thursday are gone, but already more have sprung up. "WE DON'T CARE," they seem to say, flowers in the air like they just don't care, and I am still so happy.

I had a few hours on Saturday of a mood I knew would appear at some point, the OH SHIT I NEED A JOB I'M GOING TO BE OUT ON THE STREETS WITH NO MONEY HELP HELP HELP. I had been sitting in my living room when this happened, and I did two things to combat it. One, I took a walk in a park, and Two, I called people who understand my brain. I didn't get actual people, but I left voice mails, and while I didn't feel better, I felt like I'd done my part to change things. I mean, I am looking, and appling for positions - so I am doing the right things. My mood is less interested in action and more focused on results, which shows that my mood should go sit in the corner.

But here it is Sunday night, and because it's May in Oregon, the twilight is huge and all is visible still, just not lit, and I can see those tiny little daisies and I am happy.

I did the absolute right thing in quitting my job and moving.
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